Floral Sunsets

flowerdreams22 @ 2008-05-04T20:29:00

2008-05-05T01:29:47Z

Random Survey #4
[Made by Brianna @ xanga.com/surveys_for_nimrods. Please don't remove this tag!]

1* You recieve a job offer from the state/province/whatever over from you that'll pay you $1,000 a week. Your parents agreed to move to you can get the job. Would you move or stay here with your friends?: It depends on the job and where I have to move.

2* Isn't it weird how some people actually consider Good Charlotte to be true punk music? They may have the appearance, but their music definitely doesn't sound punk.: yeah

3* Do you drink energy drinks? If so, what kind?: no

4* Did you hear t.A.T.u.'s newer stuff? Do you even like t.A.T.u.?: YES AND YES!!!! <3 t.A.T.u!!!!!!

5* How many people did you have a crush on this year?: one

6* Do you get jealous when one of your friends of the opposite sex (or the same sex if you go that way) get a girlfriend/boyfriend, whether you like like that them or not?: no

7* Isn't it annoying when people act like ALL mainstream music must suck because it's popular?: yes

8* Have you ever stayed back or had to repeat a class in school?: repeat chemsitry first semester

9* In school (or when you were), do you usually slack off during the 4th quarter?: no

10* When does your school get out this year?: I graduated May 3.

11* Name some people that you used to be good friends with, but either moved away or transferred schools.: Annemarie moved

12* Do you have your ears stretched (more commonly known as "gauged", even though it's not the correct term)? If so, to what size?: no

13* Do you think ear stretching is gross or awesome?: never heard of it...what the hell

14* If you could get one tattoo right here, right now, for free and without any pain, what would it be?: a serpent dragon...but I'd actually like to feel it...

15* If you're in a relationship, how's the sex? Or lack thereof?: lol

16* Worst book you ever read?: basically everything I had to read sophomore year of high school for English

17* What movie is coming out soon that you're excited about?: the t.A.T.u movie

18* Ever seen the movie "Pet Sematary" (yes, that's how it's spelled for the movie)? Did you like it?: yes and yes

19* What about "A Clockwork Orange"?: seen some of it...it was ok...I didn't get to the interesting part

20* Isn't It Annoying When People Capitalize Every Word Like This?: yes

21* If you have MSN, what's your display picture? Or if you have AIM, what's your buddy icon?: none

22* Have you ever met a transexual person?: yes

23* Which do you wear more in the summer; capris, shorts, skirts, or something else?: long pants

24* If you could have any middle name in the world, what would it be?: the one I have is fine

25* Do you think it's unique or annoying when people spell names like "Marissa" as "Merisa", or "Jamie" as "Jayme", and so on?: it is what it is

26* What's something that you borrowed that you have yet to give back?: nothing

27* On your preferred sex, do you like glasses or no glasses?: who cares

28* Do you have any crazy neighbors? What do they do?: no

29* When's your birthday, and what do you plan to do on your next birthday?: January 22 and I plan on nothing

30* What's your best friend's middle name?: guess

31* What's your most recent ex's last name?: guess

32* And were they an asshole?: no

33* Do you collect bottle caps?: no

34* Have you ever seen an unerect penis? Isn't it weird-looking?: only in pictures...

35* What's your favorite flavor of Snapple?: iced tea

36* Do you/did you have any school spirit? Why or why not?: I loved my school so sure

37* When's the last time you got a haircut? How much was taken off?: too long and not much...I need a trim

38* If you could change the spelling of your name to make it look cooler, how would you spell it?: just make it Kris

39* What's one nickname you can't stand being called?: none that are used

40* Do you have your mouth open or closed when applying mascara?: I don't apply that

41* Are you in love with anyone at the moment?: anyone...anything...

42* Which do you think is a more powerful feeling, love or hate?: love

43* If you could dye your hair any color and have it come out right, what would it be?: none

44* Do you own any Converse shoes?: no

45* What's your favorite kind of shoe to wear in the summer?: platforms

46* Have you kissed anyone today?: yes

47* Do you crack your knuckles, or do you think it's disgusting?: no and no

48* Last song you listened to?: one from my faerie cd

49* Have you ever hugged your boyfriend/girlfriend's sister?: no

50* What about one of your boyfriend/girlfriend's parents?: no

51* Do you like surveys to have numbers or to be without numbers?: numbers

52* Last music video you watched?: Beliy Plashick by t.A.T.u

53* Do conceited people annoy the crap out of you?: yes

54* Have you ever made your confirmation? Are you even Catholic?: yes and no

55* Are you pro-life or pro-choice?: choice

56* When you die, where do you want to be burried?: don't know

57* When you turn 18, are you going to get any tattoos?: no

58* Are you afraid of needles?: definitely no

59* Ever had stitches? Where?: I have many stiches in my eyes right now

60* Do you want to have kids in the future?: no

[Made by Brianna @ xanga.com/surveys_for_nimrods. Please don't remove this tag!]

flowerdreams22 @ 2008-04-21T02:14:00

2008-04-21T07:14:40Z

1. You & your ex:
are friends

2. I am listening to:
nothing, but I will change that now...ah, on the ipod shuffle comes Memories by Within Temptation

3. Maybe I should:
start my personal essay

4. I love:
everyone! hehe

5. I don't understand:
some people

6. I have lost my respect for:
some of the teachers here

7. I last ate:
apple chips

8. The meaning of my display name is:
self-explanatory....and then some nice number

-IS YOUR/ARE YOU-

1. Is your hair wet?:
slightly damp

2.is your cell phone right by you?
yes

3. Do you miss someone?:
yeah

4. Are you wearing chapstick?
no

5. Are you tired?:
eh

6. Are you wearing pajamas?
yes

7. Are you mad?:
no

8. Are you upset?:
no

HAVE YOU

1. Recently done anything you regret?:
no

2. Ever lied?
yes

4. Have you ever hit someone?
yes

5. Ever tripped over your own feet?
yes

TODAY HAVE YOU:

1. Have you cursed ?
yes

2. Have you gotten mad at someone?:
not really...upset with two of my friends' boyfriends for being jerks is all

RANDOM

Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now?
several

Q: Do you have any siblings?
yes

Q: Do you want children?
no

Q. Do you smile often?
more so now than I have in a long time

Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
zippers

Q: Do you like your handwriting?
no

Q: What were you doing at 7PM yesterday?
online

Q: I can't wait till:
soooo many things!

Q: What would you rather be called?
Kris

Q: When did you cry last?
earlier today...felt bad for leaving my meds at home

Q: Are you a friendly person?
sure

Q: Do you have any pets?
family dog

Hi my name is:
Kristin

When I'm nervous:
it's obvious

When I'm sad/mad:
I feel things in extremes

By this time next year:
things will just be more wonderful, I am sure

Last night was:
not bad, though I felt bad for Cindy and Anne

Today will be:
wonderful I think/hope

My biggest turn on is:
it depends in what way

I can't breathe when:
I have an asthma attack

I get dizzy when:
I have an inner ear infection

My best friend is:
happy, I hope

I cannot live without:
love

I will never:
be the same again

1.Three days from now will you have sex?
not physically, I'm pretty sure

2. What color are your eyes?
my eyes are brown/blue/green and currently the left one is red

3. What does your second text say?
pff as if I'll look

4. How do you think your latest ex feels about you?
that I am his friend

5. Do you like what you see in the mirror?
yes, everything is beautiful when you are given sight

6. What are you listening to right now?
Soul Inside by Inkubus Sukkubus....reminds me of Levi

7. What’s one word to describe you?
wordless

8. What are your plans for this weekend?
two honors ceremonies, senior blessing mass, spend time with Cindy, work on my movie

9. What makes you laugh?
funny things

10. How is your room looking?
fine

11. Get asked anything ridiculous lately?
of course

12. What are you doing tomorrow?
class, doctor, homework

13. What's your aim screen name?
you know it if you know it

14. What are you wearing right now?
pjs

15. What are you most looking forward to today?
everything...seriously!

16. How is your hair?
damp from my shower

17. As of today, do you like anyone?
yes of course

18. Have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past 7 hours?
no

19. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours?
not right now, but I have before

20. Do you stay friends with your exes?
the one I have, yes

21. Do you like your first name?
eh

22. Do you like to cuddle?
yes!!!

23. What are your initals?
kmk

24. Baseball or football?
don't care

25. Married?
hell to the no

26. Favorite kind of blanket?
fuzzy....my tie dye one!

27. What's your biggest fear?
I don't have any fears right now

28. How do you feel about chocolate-covered strawberries?
yum!

29. What kind of soap do you use?
lavender

30. Europe or the Caribbean?
both

31. How do you feel about racism?
horrible and irrational

32. Who is the sexiest person alive?
"person" and "alive"....such limiting terms :p

33. Who was the last person you talked to on MSN or AIM?
Anne, Cindy, Romek, Josh

34. Name a song that reminds you of old memories &what do you think of?
um...all songs remind me of one thing or another....

35. Do you like the color gray?
sure

36. Is there someone you really can't stop thinking about?
no

37. Look outside, how's the weather?
fine

38. Are you jealous of anyone right now?
ha, no

39. Did you ever think someone didn't like you, but came to find out they really did?
that I did

40. Last time you ate grilled cheese?
too long...now I want some

41. Name something great that happened today:
I edited my play

42. Do you regret doing something today?
no

43. When you think of the rainbow, what pops in your head?
a rainbow

1. Are you one of those people who think they're always right?
no

2. When is the last time you took a nap?
earlier

3. Do you only drink bottled water?
no

4. What are you listening to right now?
Nich'ya by t.A.T.u LIVE

5. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
my grandma

7. To send you a Myspace message?
Geri

8. What's on your mind most today?
lots of things

9. Something that happened today that made you mad.
Anne's b/f is trying to impose limitations on her

10. Have you ever driven a car?
no

11. Did you have chickenpox?
yes

12. Whats the weather like?
fine

36. What was the last compliment you got?
that I am a good listener

15. Whats the last thing you watched on tv?
something i wasn't really paying heed to

16. Are you missing someone right now?
sure

17. What's your favorite number?
22 and 16

18. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
by any shelf

19. What instant messaging service do you use?
aim and yim

20. Whats your favorite type of food?
lots

21. Most hated food?
saurkraut ribs

22. What color eyes do you have?
they are still the same as before

23. Would you date/hook up with your sisters best friend?
no

24. Have you ever had mikes hard lemonade?
yes

25. Have you ever taken pain killers?
yes

26. Have you ever had a panic attack?
yes, never again...

27. What color is your hair?
brown with auburn highlights

29. What do you need right now?
to do my personal essay...well first to come up with a topic

30. how is your heart?
a bit poundy but fine

31. How many times have you been to the hospital for an injury?
injury? only one

32. What do you want most right now?
to figure out a topic for this personal essay and write it

33. Has anyone ever suggested you needed anger managament?
when i was angry

35. Are you doing this just because you're bored?
sure

37. OK, time to get serious, are you REALLY a guitar hero?
no

38. Whens the last time you ate sunflower seeds?
I can go eat some right now if I want...I have a bag

39. are you willing to go the distance?
totally!

40. Are you hungry?
eh

Okay this is called “FIRST REACTIONS QUIZ”. I have reacted to being sent this by actually filling this out. You have to type the 1ST thing that comes to mind whenever you hear these 35 things. You can’t think and go back and change your answers. Copy and Paste, then delete answers to make them your own.

Here we go:

1. Beer: gross

2. Anorexic: bulimic

3. Relationships: love

4. Purple: pretty

5. Power Rangers: show

6. Weed: flower

7. Steroids: fucking prednisone

8. Cartoons: characters

9. The President: of the USA

10. Tupperware: container

11. Best vacation: live

12. Santa Claus: christmas

13. Halloween: monster

14. Bon Jovi: music

15. Grammar: style

16. Facebook: site

17. Worst fear: nothing

18. Marriage: ceremnoy

19. Paris Hilton: eh

21. Redhead: hair

22. Blonde: hair

23. Pass the time: waste

24. One night stands: sex

25. Donald Trump: guy

26. Neverland: fantasy

27. Pixie Sticks: sugar

28. Vanilla ice cream:cold

29. School: attend

30. Work: busy

31. Pajamas: comfy

32. Woods: trees

33. Wet Sock: ew

34. Alcohol: blah

35. Love: everything

flowerdreams22 @ 2008-04-16T19:36:00

2008-04-17T00:36:55Z

*~ Controversial Issues ~*
How do you feel about abortion?: Pro-choice.

How do you feel about cloning and stem cell research?: to assist with organ transplants and diseases, fine. But there is no need to clone an entire person.

How do you feel about censorship?: fuck censorship :p

How do you feel about gun control?: I think guns should be controlled.

How do you feel about communism?: It's a bit too extreme, from what I know.

How do you feel about plastic surgery?: do what you want

How do you feel about gay marriage?: for it
How do you feel about the death penalty?: against it
How do you feel about online dating?: it depends on the situation
How do you feel about flirting if you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: I see no problem with it as long as you are not deceiving anyone and there is an understanding.

*~ Right Now ~*
Date And Time: wed, april 16 2008, 7:13 PM
Wearing: black shirt, green pants, serpent necklace...
Hairstyle: Down
Eating: nothing
Drinking: decaf coffee

Thinking About: soooooooo much!
Listening to: a tatu remix right now on my ipod
Talking to: megan on AIM but she's busy
Singing?: nothing
The Weather is: lovely
Your mood is: content :)

*~ Miscellaneous Questions ~*
Do you sleep with stuffed animals?: yes stuffed snakes
Do you have a journal?: not really...

Do you have any piercings?: no

Do you have any tattoos?: No.

Do you want any piercings/tattoos?: maybe a tattoo eventually

Do you have any bad habits?: who doesn't?
Are you superstitious?: No...but I beleive everything happens for a reason.

Do you wish on stars?: not seriously
Do you like roller coasters?: depends what one
How do you release your anger?: throwing things, hitting things, crying, venting, singing, writing...
What are the last 4 digits of your phone number?: FUCK

Where would you like to sleep for a night?: a forest
Where’s your second home?: my dorm
What was the last thing you cried over or got teary about?: comments about my writing portfolio
What’s something about guys/girls that you don’t get?: humans confuse me
How do you eat an Oreo?: like I eat anything
What’s an object you can’t live without?: um, an inhaler...

What makes you happy?: many things

What’s the next CD you’re going to get?: the new tatu single SIGNED and NUMBERED

What’s your most embarrassing CD?: none
Do you have a CD burner?: Yes.

Do you have a lava lamp?: yes
Do you wear contacts or glasses?: glasses.

Do you have braces or a retainer?: No.

Worst sickness you’ve ever had: vision issues

Where is your computer?: In front of me
What’s on your mouse pad?: no mouse pad
Can you touch your nose with your tongue?: No.

Can you lick your wenis?: no, but I can lick yours
Can you juggle?: No.

How many keys on your key ring?: three and one

Best wedding you ever went to?: there was only one and I was bored
What’s the worst advice given to you?: to give up

What’s the best advice given to you?: Never give up.

What is one of the best days of your life?: I remember dates.
What books are you reading? Space/Time Magic
What song seems to reflect you most?: it depends on my mood
Do you have any enemies?: yes..especially X Bitch
What did you do today?: finished a research paper, went to class, went out with someone, spent time with friends, had a meeting with a teacher
What are you doing later?: relaxing and chatting
What is your greatest fear?: honestly? right now? nothing
If you died tomorrow who would you leave everything you owned to?: whoever wants stuff
What inspires you?: everything can...especially thought provoking things and deep emotions

What did you have for breakfast?: coffee
Do you like getting mail?: if it is good mail

If E.T.
knocked on your door and asked to use your phone, what do you do?: think I'm losing my mind
What’s your e-mail address?: I’m not giving that out.

What does it mean?: there is more than one
Last time you were depressed?: um...yeserday b/c of the portfolio...but I'm over it
What is your all time most favorite sweet?: lots
How do you want to die?: with my angel
What do you want to happen to your body once you die?: who cares
If you could bring someone back from the dead who would it be?: hall
If you could go back in time and change something about your life? Change myself for the benefit of another
If you could ask God one question, what would it be?: oh no....just one.....I must question everything!! lol I think maybe I should just ask "why". I'll probably get an answer like "why not." lol
If you were stuck on a deserted island, who would you want to be with?: I want to leave the island.

What is your idea of fun?: something I enjoy

If you could take over the world, would you?: No.

If you could be doing anything right now, what would it be?: talking to friends or hanging out with them
Who do you want to be with right now?: my English major friends probably
Do you like to swim?: eh
Which celebrity (or even animated character) do you look most like?: none
In the past week, what is the most fun thing you have done?: hung out with people
What would you do if you knew the world would end tomorrow?: pray
Who do you think is the most attractive person in the world?:
hmmm...everyone in some way...but those I am close with it radiates more to me

If you could go back to any era in history, where would you go and why?: renaissance
Do you have a cellphone or MP3 player?: both
What’s something crazy that you would do for a million dollars?: I don’t know
Who would you consider a hero?: I don't know...anyone who helps another
Who are your personal heroes?: those who have helped me
If you were to become blind, what would you miss most?: oh don't even! I already can't see, and I miss never knowing what it is like to see.

Do you do volunteer work?: I have.

Where do you want to travel most?: space. astral plane.

What are your favorite types of accents?: russian
What are you most known for?: who knows

Do you have a myspace?: yeah but it was made just for band updates, though i do have a couple friends on there from a magick forum

What was the last thing you bought?: lunch for cindy and i

Would you ever enlist in the military?: no

If you hadn’t been doing this survey, what would you have been doing?: sleeping

flowerdreams22 @ 2008-02-24T18:36:00

2008-02-25T00:36:26Z

This is fucking stupid. No one posts or reads except once in a blue moon. I wish I had a deadjournal. :(

Also posted on myspace...thanks Diana

2008-01-06T19:07:17Z

Diana posted this as a bulletin. I am posting it as a blog...though my profile is on private so I guess it doesn't matter...I just want everyone to be able to see it. It's incredibly true, and I cannot express enough how much these things can affect another being.....the fear, the denial, the longing for what can never be, and the missing of oppurtunities....but especially the love that is constant. Everyone means something to me....and some mean absolutely everything. Please take the advise set down here...don't make the mistakes that I have or that I see others make and regret....don't forget any of your friends.....even if they never speak to you and you think that they don't care....even if they hurt you, at one time they were there, and that is what it was meant to be, and sometimes things are not permanent in this way. Even if it is, try to cherish the memories, even if it's hard. Even if it hurts to remember what you have lost. If they are good memories, they should be cherished and never forgotten or thought upon negatively...I know I do this sometimes, and it just makes you more upset, trust me. Please, take this seriously. I know it's some kind of chain bulletin thing....but it's incredibly valuable....I wish I had listened before. I wish people would listen now. But I didn't. And they won't. So do what you truly feel in your heart, despite others, despite the circumstances of the world.....despite yourself.

..> ..> : Read Slowly...

Have you ever wondered which
hurts the most?
Saying
something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying
nothing
and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.Don't be afraid to
tell someone you love them.

If you do, they might
break your heart...if you don't, you
might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so
afraid
of losing what you already
had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't
tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you
?

Too many of us stay walled up
because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your
feelings for someone because your fear of
rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we

don't know, afraid of what
others will think, afraid of what will be
found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear
grows stronger
.

Life is all about
risks
and it requires
you to
jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they
would have done, or
could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you
never got
to tell them how you felt? (
even if it is that you don't care anymore)

*What would you do if you
loved
someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

*What would you do if you never got the
chance

to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*

People live, but people die.
I want to tell you that
you are a friend.

If you died tomorrow (God Forbid)

you would be in my heart.
Would I be in yours?

If you
care
about me as much as I care about you

you will send this back

You might be
best friends one
year,
pretty good friends the next
year,
don't talk that often the
next, and
don't want to talk
at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are
special to me and you have made a difference
in my life,

I look up
to you,
respect you, truly cherish you , most of all I CARE
about friends

Send this to all your friends,
no matter
how often
you talk, or
how
close
you are, and send it to the person who sent it to you.

Let old friends know you
haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you
never will.

Remember,
everyone needs a friend
someday you might feel like you have
NO FRIENDS
at all,
just remember
this e-mail and takecomfort in knowing
somebody out there
cares
about you
and .
always
will..

I care about YOU !!

Send this to all the friends that you have...all the friends that you've lost...and to all the friends you've lost touch with...just to let them know that you care...send this back to the person who sent it to you if you consider them a friend

A Thought

2007-08-09T02:03:40Z

It's amazing how much a single individual can have such a significant impact on your life. It's like they are essential, and their absence can be utterly destructive to your spirit while their presence can be heavenly.

Actually Accurate

2007-07-18T18:00:54Z

Your Psyche is Violet

You are spiritual, intuitive, and serene.
People trust you to rescue them from bad situations, and you usually come through.
While you are quite enlightened, you find that your path is very lonely.

When you are too violet: you can't connect to ordinary life or ordinary people

When you don't have enough violet: you lack wisdom and can't learn from the past

What Color Is Your Psyche?

Thing from Carrie on Myspace

2007-06-23T07:22:57Z

You're on my friends list. I'd like to know 25 things about you.

Just hit reply to sender. Thanks!

You'll be surprised how much you didn't know about your friends after this!

1. Do you have a tattoo?

2. How old are you?

3. Are you single or taken?

4. Eat with your hands or utensils?

5. Do you dream at night?

6. Ever seen a corpse?

7. Sugarland or Metallica?

8. Do You Hate Bush?

HERE COMES THE EQUALLY INTERESTING PART...

9. Whats your philosophy on life and death?

10. If you could do anything with me, and have no one know, what would it be?

11. Do you trust the police?

12. Do you like Country music?

13. What is your fondest memory of me?

14. If you could change anything about yourself what would it be?

15. Would you cheat?

16. What do you wear to sleep?

17. Have you ever peed in a pool?

18. Would you hide evidence for me if I asked you to?

19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?

20. Which do you prefer - hat or no hat?

21. Do you Mosh at metal shows?

22. What's your favorite color?

23. If you could bring back anyone that has passed, who would it be?

24. Tell me one interesting/odd fact about you?

25. Whats your take on gay/lesbian couples?

26. Do you like Monster Rock??

27. How did we meet?

28. Do you like Anime?

29. If I was falling out of a tree, how would you save me?

30. If you could give me a brand new name what would it be?

Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

Re-post this so the poster and others can fill it out for you!!!

Pretty Pic!

2007-06-15T22:48:56Z

Behold the new icon I have! Mary AKA Adiens made it, and it's very pretty. So yay!

Life on Jupiter

2007-05-26T06:46:29Z

Damn right there's life on Jupiter...lol

http://www.daviddarling.info/encyclopedia/J/Jupiterlife.html

http://www.time.com/time/magazine/article/0,9171,895649,00.html

Wowwww

2007-05-14T01:05:30Z

I slept thirteen hours today and I still want to sleep more! Yikesness, this is what I get for throwing off my sleep schedule!

My Writings

2007-05-08T15:30:54Z

Ok, for anyone who has read my writing....I am going to submit some of it to the Sigma Tau Delta English Honors Society publication and see if it gets in and/or wins a prize. I can put up to six poems and three prose. Does anyone have any specific suggestions of what I should submit?

I am damaged....

2007-05-08T04:12:14Z

And it hurts me. :(

:(

2007-05-04T01:58:00Z

I'm so tired of being hurt, left out, and unwanted....I seriously must be doing something wrong.

YAY!

2007-05-02T19:19:06Z

I'M DONE! NO MORE SCHOOL UNTIL THE END OF AUGUST! FREEEEEEEEEDOOOOOOOOM!!!!!!

E-Death

2007-04-28T21:44:13Z

Why is the internet so freaking DEAD today? I guess everyone has lives instead of having to write a ten page research paper. I'm blasting t.A.T.u to rid myself of some of this absolute boredom, but it can only do so much. There is no one around ANYWHERE. Seriously, there is no one even walking around outside or in the halls. Maybe it's the end of the world and I was just not informed. Heh....though I'd probably actually be one of the first to know about that... :p

Anyways, this really sucks. I have no life. I'm super alone. I'm super bored. And I'm listening to a song about gay boys. lol

Yay, Dave signed on! Finally a distraction from the pointlessness of this essay!

I like these deeper surveys...

2007-04-28T07:23:42Z

whats one thing thats heavily weighing on your mind?
the ultimate purpose of my existence

whats one thing you've learned from a good friendship gone bad?
that it can get better...no matter how many people think you're crazy to still care, no matter how much pain you are in, if you truly believe in your heart that it isn't meant to be over, don't give up and lose hope...that goes for many things really

whats one thing you've learned lately from love?
that you can be completely in love with someone, and even if they don't return the feelings, they can still bring you the greatest joy

is there anyone special in your life at the moment?
very much so

whats a happy time you've had in the past week?
I got a perfect grade on my cult story for my fiction class...not an easy feat

how far would you go for love?
farther than forever and the edge of the universe

is there anything in your past that youd like to try again?
sure, but that's what life is...if I want to try something again, I just do it in the present to the extent that I can

whats your favorite kind of weather?
storms

why is this?
they are beautiful and exhilerating yet relaxing

who do you like to spend your nights with?
my best friends....even if it can only be online or on the phone for the most part these days...also my sister when I'm home...she's good company

are you an emotional person?
very

can you cry in front of others easily?
yes, unfortunately

whats something that can always make you feel better?
Josh

what does love make you feel like?
whole and alive, with something indescribable

and losing love?
broken and empty....a pain and despair greater than any other

are you self conscious?
yeah, to an extent

do you think of others before yourself?
generally yes

where do you see youself this time next year?
I don't even try

do you tend to make relationships complicated?
no, relationships are complicated by nature

do you think you'd be able to survive a whole year in jail?
I wouldn't want to, but if I had to

who do you feel the most comfortable around?
my best friends

is there something that your waiting for?
very much, my trip

someone perhaps???
I guess you could say that...haha

one thing your not looking forward to.....
finals

how do you feel about change?
it's neccessary and makes things interesting

what season are you most ooking forward to?
fall

why is that?
i love the atmosphere

any plans this summer?
many

what are your plans for you next birthday?
who knows

do you even care about your birthday?
no...or at least, i try not to

do you think someone out there is in love with you?
of course not

how do you feel right this second?
well the last question kind of made me a little sad...but I'm over it now

want to have babies?
definately no

when?
never

with whom?
no one

how do you feel about racism?
it's a negative thing

what about the president?
blah

when do you think the world will end?
when humanity destroys it

do you even think about this kind of stuff?
yes

whats the most expensive peice of clothing you own?
my shoes actually

why do you drive the car you have right now?
i don't have one

when it comes to sex, do you have to be in love?
i'd say yes, though i have considered otherwise

why did you have sex the first time you did?
i didn't

do you regret the first time you had sex?
i can't regret something that didn't happen

whats life mean to you?
i'm still figuring that out...it's a continual process

A Very Important Message

2007-04-25T03:28:17Z

I am so sick and tired of this drama. It's all "he/she said this about so and so" and "he/she did or did not do this or that to me" and of course the opposing party always denies the statements of the other and instead turns around with a negative statement about the person who said it in the first place. What does this solve? In fact, nothing more than temporary emotional release that will by its very nature simply build up again for a future "outburst."

One thing ends and something else begins. This is continuous and frankly, it makes me want to cry. It makes me sick. And it makes me question who my real friends are and who is being honest with me. And I doubt I am the only one who is plauged by this question and who is tired of all of this negativity.

There is always someone not liking someone else for some reason that makes sense to that person based on emotionally based "logic". Or, someone just says they don't care either way when clearly they do b/c they turn around later and say negative things. Can't people just say what they mean? Does everything have to be some kind of fabrication for self-sustanance and heightening as well as personal rationalization and justification, or some kind of negatively charged statement then followed by a contradiction? Contradictions and negativity. It's extremely upsetting. Especially among a group of "friends".

This is very sad. I would love to have a party over the summer with EVERYONE invited, but I can barely even consider this. Someone will have to hold back their hostility towards someone else, someone won't come b/c of someone else, and maybe an all out argument would break out among the tenseness. That's not my idea of fun.

This is not to blame anyone or to attack anyone, it's quite the opposite. It's a call for peace. No, it's a plea. I'm asking everyone who reads this to genuinely take a look at yourself HONESTLY. Just truly examine yourself and your behaviors and statements. Admit, at least to yourself, the mistakes you have made and see them as oppurtunities to grow, not as habits to live by. Dig deep within and release the grudges, irrational disdain for others, and hell even what may sem to be a RATIONAL disdain. Whatever it is, it's in the PAST. And if you can't get past the previous harms that others have done against you, then how do you expect those very people to get past acting those ways? Life is about change, growth, and experience. These things are largely brought about by the relationships we form with others, especially our lasting friendships. I'm not asking you to LIKE absolutely everyone. But if you don't like someone, truly know why that is. You might find out it has something to do with yourself as well as the other person. And if you don't like them, don't PRETEND to like them. Don't act friendly, say things between you are great, and then walk away to talk trash about them to someone else. If you don't like them, move on with your life. Don't dwell on your negative feelings and let them dictate your actions and words. If you really wanted nothing to do with them, you wouldn't continue to bring them up in conversation or say that you would talk to them if you get the chance to.

No one is perfect. Everyone has, at some point, said some things that they don't mean out of anger, myself included. Holding a grudge against someone for doing this, to me at least, is an act of self-denial. I'm not saying be PLEASED with it, but at least understand, as a HUMAN who also has emotions, why that person acted the way they did and said the things that they said, even if it hurts you. Realize that you are probably not the only one hurt from the situation. Angry outbursts don't come out of nowhere. They are a way of dealing with pain that can't be otherwise adequately coped with, whether that pain comes from the person the outburst was directed at or even a more profound pain that originated from within the person and was only triggered by the object of the outburst. Either way, these experiences shoudl not be looked upon as concrete unchangeable statements and actions that were rational, calculated, and certain truths. In fact, they are nothing more than irrational falacies otherwise known as DEFENSE MECHANISMS. If you don't know what those are, I highly suggest you look them up as a means of self-analysis and improvement. Everyone does them. No one is immune at all times, but if you are aware, you can lessen their control over you and have more of an understanding for why others act and say the things that they do.

I really hope that this statement reaches you all, but if even one life is changed because of it....if even ONE SINGLE PERSON decides to improve themself and TRULY work towards bettering themself and their relationship....then this will worthwhile. I invite you all to repost this or link to this and spread this very important message.

~Kris

My Strengths

2007-04-19T20:18:33Z

We learned abuot this quiz in class that tells your top strengths. Go to www.authentichappiness.com and take the VIA signature strenths one.

Your Top Strength
Love of learning
You love learning new things, whether in a class or on your own. You have always loved school, reading, and museums-anywhere and everywhere there is an opportunity to learn.

Your Second Strength
Forgiveness and mercy
You forgive those who have done you wrong. You always give people a second chance. Your guiding principle is mercy and not revenge.

Your Third Strength
Capacity to love and be loved
You value close relations with others, in particular those in which sharing and caring are reciprocated. The people to whom you feel most close are the same people who feel most close to you.

Your Fourth Strength
Kindness and generosity
You are kind and generous to others, and you are never too busy to do a favor. You enjoy doing good deeds for others, even if you do not know them well.

Your Fifth Strength
Spirituality, sense of purpose, and faith
You have strong and coherent beliefs about the higher purpose and meaning of the universe. You know where you fit in the larger scheme. Your beliefs shape your actions and are a source of comfort to you.

I took longer tests and that really is my "type"

2007-04-07T08:03:27Z

Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)

Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive.

Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men
You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Revised Things That Suck/Rock Lists

2007-04-04T00:08:07Z

So back in fall I made a Things That Suck and Things That Rock list on myspace. The Things That Suck list came on a day when I was especially upset, and the Things That Rock list came a bit after when I cleary wasn't so negative. Aaaanyways...I decided to repost the lists and I made some alterations. For example, in the Things That Suck list one item listed was about jerks prank calling at three am. Since that is no longer an issue, I replaced it with something else, and so on and so forth. So there are some old and some new things in these lists.

Kristin's Official THINGS THAT SUCK List

1. Teachers who are so perfectionistic that even my extremely high personal standards are not high enough for them, which results in me getting a C plus on a test which, mind you, was two handwritten two-page essays in which we were to show that we memorized specific details about presentations that were given and formulate them into comparison and contrast within a fifty minute period...and mine wasn't CREATIVE enough for her. Plus my typed essay was apparently too repetitive of my presentation, which then implies that she wanted me to leave things out of the presentation or what??

2. Jerks who take for granted or don't appreciate or acknowledge something special when they have it or do not see how lucky they are

3. Jealousy

4. People who experiment on other people and later deny everything...this has happened to a friend of mine recently and I have seen this far too much in my life. Don't do things unless you mean them people! And if you did it, fucking admit it and stop lying to yourself and the world by saying that "nothing ever happened". That's fucking bullshit.

5. Powdered coffee creamer. It's just insufficient.

6. Distance!!

7. Time also sucks! Waiting is too fucking long. And why else does time suck? B/c you can't go back in it and prevent shit from happening that's why! Waiting just sucks in general b/c it seems I am always waiting for something and half the time it never comes!

8. CONFUSION AND UNCERTAINTY!

9. PARANOIA AND OVERANALYZATION!

10 Labels and stereotypes/generalizations

11. When people keep things from me in order to "protect" me or not to hurt me. I'd much much MUCH rather know, even if it's painful! When this happens then it makes me wonder what else someone isn't going to tell me and starts on the paranoia and trust issues...so PLEASE just be open with me!

12. Broken hearts. They never heal. Ever.

13. Limitations

14. Brownies gone wrong

15. People saying they will do something and then not do it

16. Fucked up eyesight

17. Being ditched

18. Needing a hug when no one is around.

19. Microsoft Excel

20. DVDs and CDs that skip.

21. Bleeding and feeling ill and crampy once a month.

22. Tons of shit due all at once

23. Feeling overwhelmed and like the entire universe is a big deception.

24. asthma

25. Extreme temperatures

26. Abandonment

27. Broken promises

28. Being told that I'm "overreacting" or being too dramatic

29. Computers that constantly crash or break

30. People who simply don't give a shit

31. People who PRETEND to give a shit.

32. Arrogant assholes

33. People who do things for attention

34. Avoidance instead of confronting honestly

35. Eliminating something instead of trying to repair it

36. MANIPULATION

37. LYING

38. DECEPTION

39. Being blamed for things you didn't do and baseless accusations in general!

40. Parents that try to control your life

41. Being left out

42. Hypocrisy!

43. FAKENESS

44. Too much homework

45. Mind games!

46. Being used

47. Feeling insignificant and worthless

48. Guilt

49. Not being given a chance

50. Restrictions of freedoms

KRIS'S OFFICIAL THINGS THAT ROCK LIST

1. Josh. It cannot be put into a summary of words what he means to me.

2. t.A.T.u

3. Lord of the Rings

4. True friends

5. lightheartedness and easygoingness

6. Realization

7. Good coffee

8. Peace of mind

9. being able to walk around in my underwear or less at my dorm :p

10. uniqueness and individuality

11. freedom

12. Star Trek Voyager

13. my sister who is just awesomely cool

14. Metallica

15 Magick

16. this number

17. learning new things

18. writing and reading

19. storms

20. beautiful nature and to just be able to walk and admire it without any other thoughts or cares

21. when friends come back to you after a long time

22. this number

23. singing

24. feeling magickal

25. the night time

26. honesty with yourself and others

27. loyalty and devotion no matter what to someone you care deeply for.....whether they reciprocate or not

28. love

29. when things are real....and you know it for certain

30. when the most unexpected thing in the entire universe happens to be the best thing that ever happened to you

31. being able to talk to someone about anything and listen to them about anything as well

32. positive signs

33. Greensleeves

34. cheesecake

35. taking a hot shower and feeling refreshed

36. when you know what is going on and that people aren't deceiving you or keeping things from you

37. my school

38. rock music

39. feelings of accomplishment

40. snakes....they just rock

41. the star in the sky that I can never see....but that I know is there shining all the same.....always

42. getting excellent grades

43. shiny things

44. not having any more math classes

45. exploration and adventure

46. IRC

47. helpful eye surgeries

48. knowing that someone will always be there for you

49. fulfilling your purpose

50. being able to help someone you love

Mary tagged me, now you are!

2007-03-28T18:57:28Z

Rules: each player starts with 6 weird facts/habits about yourself. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 weird habits or facts as well as state this rule very clearly. At the end you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Dont forget to leave a post saying you tagged them and for them to check your blog.

1. I like to eat breakfast sausage dipped in maple syrup and french fries dipped in chocolate milkshakes.

2. I have a strange ability to remember specific dates and sometimes even times of significant events in my life, good and bad. Actually my memory is generally really good. I remember strange things that no one else does.

3. Quite frequently I just know things in unexplainable ways. Good things, bad things, and insignificant things.

4. I've been told that I sing/hum to myself without realizing it and that I talk in my sleep.

5. When I'm nervous, I pull on my sleeves or play with my jewelery. But I also just play with my jewelery unconsciously for no apparent reason.

6. Some days I can see better than other days.

I tag..

1. Josh

2. Dave

3. Anne

4. Megan

5. Angie

6. Marsha

flowerdreams22 @ 2007-03-25T14:10:00

2007-03-25T19:11:27Z

long live apathy

This Post Is Pointless

2007-03-25T01:10:49Z

I really haven't had anything to say here for a while....and I still don't.

Run away with a pretzel and sing to a snowflake

2007-03-14T19:36:10Z

1. Where did your last kiss take place?
--- my mind

2. Who knows a secret or two about you?
--- you

3. Three words to explain why you last threw up?
--- high dose prednisone

4. Have you ever burned yourself?
--- yes....both on accident and on purpose

5. What's crazy to you?
--- me

6. Favorite cuss word:
--- assfuck....as one word

7. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
--- I don't know or care

8. Who is your hero?
--- Josh

9. Would you ever want to be a model?
--- no....oddly enough, I'm in the fashion show though....

10. Who is the most experimental person you know?
--- it depends on what you mean by that....

11. Do you tell white lies?
--- haven't for a long time.....I find it pointless

12. When is your next party?
---tonight ;)

13. Who do you want to be with right now?
-- my best friends

16. Your motivation for tomorrow?
--- I'm going to see Anne and Marsha

17. Last person that hurt you?
--- ....don't want to talk about it

18. Last person to make you laugh?
--- my philosophy teacher

19. Last thing you ate?
--- roast beef sandwich

20. Do you ever go a few days without changing your underwear?
--- no

21. Have you ever accidentally eaten an insect?
--- probably

22. Do daddy long legs freak you out?
--- not at all

23. Have you ever cleaned up someone else's vomit?
--- no

24. Have you ever dropped food on the floor and eaten it?
--- yeah, I don't care

25. Do you kiss your pets on the mouth?
--- no

27. What serial killer do you find most disturbing?
--- no specific one

28. Do you ever talk to the TV?
---yeah

29. Would you ever work in a retirement home?
--- no

30. Do you believe plants have feelings?
--- yes

31. Do you laugh at people with "bowl" haircuts?
--- no

32. Do you have nervous twitches?
no

33. Are you ever purposely irritating?
--- yes

34. If you could fly, where would you go first?
---hmmm....first, to massachusetts.....then, to the stars (if i can fly, i can also breathe in space....its my daydream, I'll do what I want)

36. Love or lust?
--- love

37. 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances?
--- 1 best friend

38. Favorite food?
--- depends

39. Do you believe that your first love never dies?
---for me? no

40. What upcoming event are you waiting and ready for?
tonight's little get together

41. Current smell?
--- food

42. Do you get your nails done?
--- no

43. Most favorite people?
they damn well know

44. What was the last thing you ordered at McDonald's?
--- fish sandwich and shamrock shake

45. Are you an emotional person?
--- too much for my own good....

46. Do you like your name?
--- no

47. What color underwear are you wearing?
--- pink with hearts

48. Do you have plans this weekend?
--- some

49. Do you work?
--- no, school

50. Do you dance naked in your room at night?
--- no

51. What did you do today?
--- went to class and took a late midterm....had some....interesting....conversations with friends

52. What are you listening to right now?
--- nothing

53. Biggest fear?
---hurting or losing the ones I love

55. How long have you been a part of MySpace?
--- couple years

56. Favorite place to be?
--- in nature

57. Do you have a crush?
--- what do you think?

58. Do you hate anybody?
--- no

59. Does anyone hate you?
--- I don't think so

60. How many people do you trust fully?
--- two, I think